Moving

I move tomorrow morning. Oh my! I also start a new course on monday.

I am really excited about this complete new start. But I am moving 145 miles away and it's a long way!

I will blog properly wants I have moved.

I hope everyone is well!

Emma

Adoption

I have enquired about two new countries for adoption. Democratic Republic of Congo and Ethiopia. As much as I want to adopt from Haiti, I don't think I can wait 2-3 years to become a mother. I've already waited 15 years. It's getting ridiculous.

I have already seen some waiting children in Ethiopia, two little girls who are 5 and 3 years old. Their names are Hermela and Meron. I'm trying not to fall in love with them!!! But it's hard. =D

I will keep you updated.

Emma x

News!

I am so happy and excited to report the following things;

1. My beautiful son, JT is going to be adopted with D and they will be brother and sister, just as I'd hoped they'd be with me. I am so happy that they will grow up together and I will get to know both of them, if not face to face but other the internet at least! Webcams and phone calls! :) I am so happy.

2. I am moving house, as of 26th september I will be living in Coventry. I will give my new address to those who want it but I'm not making it common knowledge, I dont want a certain ex husband knowing it! I want freedom!

3. I might have been given a way to become a mother other than adoption. IVF with both an egg and sperm donor. I am not sure about it, as I've lost 8 biological babies already. But we'll see.

4. I will start my prep courses a week after I move in to my new apartment. Wish me luck!!


Emma x

I have been approved

On friday morning I got a phone call,

I have been approved. I am one step closer! I'm not as excited as I thought I'd be. I'm tired, so, so tired of waiting for a baby, for a child.

I keep thinking of my little Alexander, how beautiful and perfect he was and how the Lord took him away from me.

I keep thinking how close I got to being Darlene and Jean-Tony's mother, how close I was to taking that step, and how James took it away from me.

I keep thinking about how Darlene is going to an amazing family, and how my heart has healed over her, just.

I keep thinking about how Jean-Tony will never, ever be my son. How I will never get to hold him and tell him how much I love him. How parents get updates on their children but I don't know anything about Jean-Tony. I don't know if he's healthy, if he's having fun, if he's happy.

I keep thinking about how long my homestudy is going to take, and how it's going to be over a year or more before I get "my child/ren" and I wonder how I will feel about Jean Tony then.

I hope all my readers are well and enjoying my posts. Comment more often guys! =D

Love, Emma

Application

I'm going to the agency office this afternoon to pick up the application form, fill it out and hand it in. I also have to give them a cheque for £4,436. (Ouch LOL)

They'll read it through and let me know today.

Emma x

Intial Interview

I was so nervous, I actually threw up.

When the SW arrived I made her a cup of tea and when she saw me shaking she put her hand on my arm and told me that she was sure everything was going to be fine.

She asked me my name, age, date of birth. She asked about James, about Alexander and my other miscarriage/stillborn children. She asked about Haiti, and why I chose it. She assured me I could adopt from there as long as it was done properly.

We chatted and she wrote down lots of things for about 2 hours and then she left.

I threw up again.

I am so relieved that the first hurdle is over.

She said she'd review her notes and phone in two days (tomorrow). If her decision is yes, then I will be sent an application for the homestudy. She said that it was doubtful that the decision would be no.

Pray for me.

Emma x

I will

Still no call

I've called the SW 3 days ago and she said she's getting to my file. Which means I've got a few more weeks to wait. I called again today and said "if you aren't going to tell me any good news at least give me a clue as to how long I have to wait."

I ended up getting very emotional and telling her my whole story and she told me she'd go get my file right now and book a date with me. I started to cry and was getting to sobs before she said

"How about Monday morning at 11am?"

PRAISE THE LORD.

Phase One has begun!!

Monday 3rd August 2009, intial interview.


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